Elusivity, my favorite mask
With other human beings.
Feathered, sequined conversation
Questions for others to answer
Decorate, distract, entertain and
Obscure windows into my own
Heart.
With family
Disengagement also works.
A cape of flowing reticence
Noncommittal abstractions
Encourage redirection towards
Someone else, anyone else.
Elaborate costumery
Lavish plumage, my protection
So useful
So costly too.
Needles and pins holding things up
Pierce deeply, coagulating my
bloodstream’s desire
Blocking true Self
Leaving arid bones
Brittle to probing
“What do I want?”
Crumble to dust upon touch.
Deafening internal chaos
Zig zagged, multi-pronged
Cloud hugging wishes
Hope, self love,
Elusive.
WOW WOW WOW–this is spectacular…and way too familiar. Great piece.
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Thank you so much for the feedback. I truly feel alone and so irregular at times so hearing from you means a lot to me.
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Oh my, I can SO relate to feeling “alone and irregular” 🙂 Just hang in there, Shelby, and I’ll keep praying for you, okay? ❤
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